I dated the devil

Come to my room he said
I give I show you the whole world
And we will be good together
Just we two together
Under the blanket
When it rains outside

He was so charming
And he looked so good
He was protecting me from others
And I felt good to be with so powerful,
Knowledgeable
(And I felt) Fearful

I dated the devil
And the devil he smiled
‘Cause you are mine

I married the devil

I was wrong and he was right
But the one day I said
You cannot dictate my feelings
As those happen inside
I have a heart and that is mine

And I was so charming
And I looked so good
When I was with him
But a fat cow at home
When we were alone
(And I felt) Fearful

I married the devil
And the devil he smiled
Your kids, those are mine

I loved the devil

A man with a hollow inside
And he had to be so wise
To satisfy grieving inside
And there was no mistake
He could make, as he was no human
And only humans make mistakes

And our daughter is so charming
And she looks so good
When she is with him
And she tries so hard to please him
To make him proud
(And I felt) Fearful

-Blue Wing Mama- Copyright © 2015, Blue Wing Mama


Not me, you

Not me, you
Always you

We go to friends
And you speak
I say a few words
And you correct me

I start to sing
and that is away from you
On the way home
I hear how horrible it was

And that I should
never sing again
Never sing again
Never sing again

Not me, you
Always you

I go to work
And I come home
I prepare the meals
But you paint the wall

‘Cause you hate to do stuff
That needs to be redone again
You rather do things
That stay the same

As I work in silence
Never sing again
Never sing again
Never sing again

Not me, you
Always you

We go to shop
And you know what to buy
You have done your homework
You know what works and why

I vanish in you
I cannot breath
Every small decision
I proceeded by a negotiation

My heart knows no spontaneous joy
Never sing again
Never sing again
Never sing again

-Blue Wing Mama- Copyright © 2015, Blue Wing Mama


Bad, bad day

I bet he was just stressed
to behave like that
I bet he didn’t really mean it
To act as he did

He calls you beautiful
Most beautiful
Sexiest girl in the world
As you got to be the most beautiful
Sexiest girl in the world to be his wife

What if he once yelled
What if he yelled twice
He brought you the flowers
The flowers from paradise

He calls you beautiful…

Yep the words hurt badly
And it is hard to forget
But yet the sun is shining
Get out and forget

He calls you beautiful…

-Blue Wing Mama- Copyright © 2015, Blue Wing Mama


Chasing the dream

The house of dreams
Will have three floors
A passage, and a pillar
And a tower too

We gathered the friends
And started to build
And you made the floorplan
Stamped it, got approved

It has to be perfect, he said
And that is how we lost a friend
He could not meet your standards
Left away

We will have a party once it’s done
But the way there was cumbersome
He was working while we had beer
The drinkers left, got elsewhere

One by one he lost his friends
All his house was an empty space
It has a pillar, and a tower too
And me, cooking a vindaloo

I painted the wall
When pregnant with our son
he is 20 now, full grown-up and gone
You are still building the house of dreams
And only the dream stays with you
When I close this door too!

-Blue Wing Mama- Copyright © 2015, Blue Wing Mama